I’m sharing this because I know I’m not the only one standing at a threshold, wondering whether to leap.
I’ve been wanting to go back to Bali since the moment I left.
Yes, so much has unfolded since then. There’s been learning, healing, growth—and still, a part of me wonders if I really let myself fully put myself first. Have I put this off? Was I truly choosing what mirrored the frequency I wanted to embody? Or was I still compromising somewhere?
And beneath that: Am I worthy of being somewhere that reflects the life I’m calling in?
Lately, through an energetic course, I’ve been in a solo space. A lot of energetic transformation. A lot of confusion. Waiting for a sign. Asking the universe to show me the next step.
But this next step doesn’t feel like it’s coming from an invitation—at least not in the way that my mind would prefer.
It’s coming from my soul.
Listening to My Soul’s Timing
My soul has been ready to go. My body, though? It's been slower, saying: wait, let me catch up, especially after all of the upgrades.
This time, going to Bali feels very different from last year.
Last time, I was a seeker—booking sessions, searching for teachers, moving from place to place every couple of weeks.
This time, I’m going back knowing more of my own magnetism. I’m not chasing doors—I’m trusting the ones that open when I lean into my truth, my worth, my frequency.
But I’ll be honest: it also feels scarier than last year.
No one’s telling me to go. I’m not even close to Bali right now. There’s no external validation. This is me, following an inner whisper.
And part of me still wants to ask the whole world, “Is this okay?”
The Fears That Arise
Fears coming to the forefront, are:
Will I be safe?
Will there be opportunities for my business?
Am I being silly for going while trying to build something stable?
Will I miss something if I leave?
Can I honor my slow rhythm and my boundaries when I don’t even fully know what they are yet?
Will I be healthy?
The last one is big.
My body remembers. The allergies. The fatigue. How unwell I was after India. How much I pushed through last summer.
Yes, last summer was magical. But it was also intense. And yet—I've never felt more in touch with my mystic self while I was in Bali. Not just the mystic… but the playful one.
The one who followed inspiration.
The one who flowed.
The one who dared.
And I’m ready to meet more of her again.
A Song in the Forest
Even here in the New Forest in the UK, the version I’m stepping into has been peeking through.
The other day I found myself singing, clapping my hands to an ancient-feeling tune:
“I am whole, I am whole.”
It felt like a remembering… And just for the record, I am not someone who has been a singer, but something is activating. My voice is opening, and it’s been a long journey for her to feel safe to do so - a lot here karmically and with bullying I experienced as a child, trying to make myself small, invisible, and agreeable.
Creativity has been waking back up. I even wrote a song about returning to Bali (to be released at a later date).
After some deep energetic work on my root chakra, I felt a shift—though there’s still hesitation. My mind still says, maybe it’s not Bali. Maybe your intuition is wrong.
And yet… my soul says: go.
Especially with another energetic upgrade coming in September, I can feel how this next chapter supports it.
An Honest Reflection
I had a conversation a friend how I was feeling.
She said gently, “You always get anxious before a big trip.”
I laughed, she was so right.
She reminded me: Just because you’re anxious doesn’t mean you shouldn’t go.
That simple reflection softened everything. Oh—this is part of my pattern. It’s not a red flag. It’s just fear showing up at the threshold.
She reflected back, “When I heard you say you booked the flight, there was excitement in your voice. Re-listen to that voicenote.”
Naming the Monsters
We spoke about naming the monsters. Saying: Hey fear, hey anxiety, I see you. I know you’re here. You can ride in the back seat—but you’re not driving.
It’s a huge shift.
Power returns when we see the parts of us that resist and offer them compassion, instead of control. Yes, there’s uncertainty. Yes, there’s doubt. But they’re not steering the wheel.
I’m letting my soul lead.
And I’d love for you to join me on the journey, this creative pilgrimage.
Reflection Questions:
Can you name your monsters? What shows up when you stand on the edge of something new?
What fears tend to surface for you when you're on the edge of a new chapter?
How do you usually respond to your "monsters"? Do they freeze you, fuel you, or something else entirely?
What would it look like to let your soul lead—even when your mind wants a map?
Where are you being called to go (internally or externally) that doesn’t yet make logical sense?
Is there a version of you—more playful, more true—that’s ready to emerge?
What part of you might need permission to rest, integrate, or move more slowly in this next season?
Can you hold space for both fear and excitement—and still take the next step?
I'd love to hear what comes up for you. Hit reply, comment below, or take these to your journal. We're never alone in these thresholds.
*Spoiler alert: I took the leap. It’s been an adjustment and I’m glad I did. Creativity peeking through. I’m realizing I may not be a nomad— but a cyclical being, drawn to different places for the seasons that feed my soul. Excited to share magic with you from these different places. #youareworthyoffollowingyoursoulsrhythm #daretolisten #daretobedifferent
**P.S. Feeling the nudge to plant a seed. There may be a soul called to join me for a one-week opportunity for a pilgrimage and ceremony here in Bali later this summer — for someone at a threshold moment, ready to fall back into the remembrance of their soul and what’s possible. I’m still very much in an inward, creation phase — letting the medicine of this path move through me, sharing bits and pieces, before I fully share it outward. If this tugs at your heart, you’ll know. More to come. Not just for Bali, but in the other sacred places I’m called to around the world. I’m walking a path that wants to be shared.
With love and a gentle nudge to follow your soul, to take the leap,
Brooke
🌀 Energy Artist | Healer | Creative Channel
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